Voices race through her mind. She wonders. Holds onto the thoughts. She tries remembering where they come from. Her mind, her memory is blocked. He holds her teasingly as she teases back. When moments occur, when he holds her down, it’s familiar, but not scary. But this time was different. Suddenly she had no control. As she says why she refuses this one time, when agreeing before, he doesn’t understand. Believing she’s playing, teasing, he holds her down, and begins to force her as he had many times before; except now she was saying no. Finally realizing she is serious, he stops.
She now remembers what she couldn’t before. Her memories brought back. As many times before they used to tease, she would allow him to play dominant, but the one time she denies, the one time he doesn’t know to stop, the flashes of her past reappear. Her memories ignited. Things she thought she would never know. Her past, her rape, feeling him hold her down; feeling so out of control brought back the memories, the pain. As he tries to hold her, to apologize, it only makes her feel worse. When memories occur, no one can help.
Only time to help forget.